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some poetry

From Duino Elegies (1912-22) by Rainer Maria Rilke translated from the German by David Young (1978). 

from the Seventh Elegy

There’s nowhere, my love

            the world can exist

                           except within.

Our lives are used up

            in transformations

                          and what’s outside us

always diminishing

           vanishes.

                        Where a solid house

once stood

           a wholly fictitious image

                        cuts in, just as if

the whole thing existed

          completely in the brain.

                        The Zeitgeist creates

huge silos of power

          that are as shapeless

                        as the training urge

he acquires from everything else.

          He has forgotten the temples.

                       We are the only ones

who try surreptitiously

          to save such squanderings

                       of the heart.

Yes, where one still stands

         a thing that once was

                      prayed to, knelt to,

served - it reaches

           just as it is

                    into the unseen world.

Many don’t notice

          and miss the chance

                   to build it now

inside themselves

          with pillars and statues

                 greater than ever!

Every heavy

            turning back of the earth

                     has such disinherited ones

who possess

              neither earlier things

                     nor what’s to come.

For what’s ahead

             is distant for men.

                  They shouldn’t confuse us

it should confirm

             our preserving a form

                       we still recognize:

This stood among men

            at one time

                        stood in the midst of fate

of destructive fate

            stood in the midst of not

                        knowing where to go

as if it existed

             and bent the stars

                        down toward it

from the established heaven.

             Angel!

                       I’m showing it to you

there it is!

            let it stand

                      so that you see it

redeemed at last

           upright.

                     Columns, pylons,

the Sphinx

           the cathedral’s gray

                      determined thrust

from some fading

           or unknown city.

                       Wasn’t this like a miracle?

Gaze at it, angel

            it’s us

                       you mighty being

you tell them that we could

             accomplish such things

                      my breath isn’t enough

for such celebration.

            For it seems after all

                      that we haven’t neglected

the spaces

             our generous portion

                       these spaces - ours

(How frighteningly vast

            they must be

                       if thousands of years

of our feelings

             have not overcrowded them.)

                      But a tower was great

wasn’t it?

              Oh angel it was

                            it was great

even set next to you.

              Chartres was great

                           and music reached

even higher

               climbing beyond us.

                          Even a girl in love

alone at night

                by her window

                          didn’t she reach to your knee?

Don’t think I’m wooing you!

                Angel

                           even if I am

you won’t come

                for my call

                           is always full of rising

you can’t move

                 against such a current

                           it’s just too strong.

My call is an outstretched arm

               and its high, reaching

                            open hand

is always before you

               open

                            incomprehensible being

wide open

             to defend

                         to warn off. 

2 years ago on March 18th, 2010 at 10:59 pm | Permalink